So I know it has been a while since I have last blogged, and I sure you scan through the last few ones because they were quite long. But here is another blog about Tia's Life.
Why is it when I am driving home from work around11:30 every night and I think of all the things I need to do, or want to do. Two nights ago I thought I would get up and run and eat a good breakfast have time with God and start doing a better routine. Well, my alarm didn't go off for my 8 o'clock wake up run and I slept until 10 and then I was suppose to be at the store for payroll at 10:30. So my point is.. why is it when you are sure you can pull off a GOOD routine, it is destroyed by something so simple like sleep or an alarm clock. Some may say "it was Satan causing it not to happen" and some will say "Oh I guess it was just not meant to happen." Either way, I felt like I had failed at something so simple.
The next day I did get up at 8:30 and with the encouragement of my best friend, went running at the park for 30 minutes. I had time with God and went to work energized. So much better than the day before.
I came upon this verse in Proverbs 4. God has called us to take his words (the Bible), pay attention and understand so they we may live a better life IN Him. I know some days we skim the verses, take the icing off the cake and spit out quick prayer for forgiveness and protection. Maybe you haven't tasted the the whole cake, or ate enough to get to the full filling of God's love and wisdom. But it's time. You want to know why you are stressed? You want to know why you feel overwhelmed by life? Because you have not taken the time to LISTEN to God's teachings. We wonder where did God go??? I've been there, many times. I wonder why is God not showing himself here? Why do I feel this weight, I thought God was suppose to take my burdens? But in all reality, I was the one who moved so far away, I was the one that swerved off the path, I stepped into the quicksand of the world or money, gossip, and disappointment. It wasn't God. But I do know that God was there waiting every second for me to just turn to him, call to him, ask him, and seek him fully. Not ride the fence of living life the way I wanted to, but to hop off into His Love, Grace and Forgiveness.
Proverbs 4:1-9: (image God comes to you as a child and tells you this)
1 My children,[a] listen when your father corrects you.
Pay attention and learn good judgment,
2 for I am giving you good guidance.
Don’t turn away from my instructions.
3 For I, too, was once my father’s son,
tenderly loved as my mother’s only child.
4 My father taught me,
“Take my words to heart.
Follow my commands, and you will live.
5 Get wisdom; develop good judgment.
Don’t forget my words or turn away from them.
6 Don’t turn your back on wisdom, for she will protect you.
Love her, and she will guard you.
7 Getting wisdom is the wisest thing you can do!
And whatever else you do, develop good judgment.
8 If you prize wisdom, she will make you great.
Embrace her, and she will honor you.
9 She will place a lovely wreath on your head;
she will present you with a beautiful crown.”
God tells us to take full acknowledgment of what He teaches. Wisdom is referred to "She/Her". Wisdom will make you great, Embrace the Wisdom that I have spoken, and Wisdom will prevail! If you use this Wisdom, you will be given a beautiful crown.
Ever since I can remember my father, was always on me to make sure I was not just thinking about what I was doing at the moment, but also what the consequences were going to be afterwards. When we moved heavy furniture he didn't want me to just focus on the weight or the furniture itself, but he told me to watch the walls and door frames, to watch where I stepped and where I was headed. Silly I know to think that something so small and almost a every weekend conversation, and I DID get sick of him saying "watch the wall, watch where you are going, watch where your hands are, DON'T TAKE ALL THE WEIGHT". My Dad may not have known this, but as I sit here, he was preparing me for life.
Watch the walls: Watch your boundaries...
Watch where you're going: Keep you focus forward...
Watch were your hands are: Are your hands where they need to be? Serving or being selfish...?
Don't take all the weight: Don't try and handle it all by yourself...
Read the verse until Verse 20....
20 My child, pay attention to what I say.
Listen carefully to my words.
21 Don’t lose sight of them.
Let them penetrate deep into your heart,
22 for they bring life to those who find them,
and healing to their whole body.
23 Guard your heart above all else,
for it determines the course of your life.
24 Avoid all perverse talk;
stay away from corrupt speech.
25 Look straight ahead,
and fix your eyes on what lies before you.
26 Mark out a straight path for your feet;
stay on the safe and firm path.
27 Don’t get sidetracked;
keep your feet from following evil.
I am not perfect, I lose sight a lot, I don't guard my heart as much as I should, and I am a sight seeker, I like to look left and right. But I want to change this. I want to be focused upon the one who WILL NOT let me fall and will guide me down the right path.
I'm praying for you. I'm praying God will meet you where you are and comfort you. He is there for you. Just call to Him. Tell Him about your day. Tell him what your heart feels.
Dear Heavenly Father, I know I have been silent for too long. I'm sorry for cluttering my ears and head of earthly problems and not focusing on You. I'm sorry for not living the life you have called me to. I'm sorry I get distracted so much by everyday life and don't notice you when you are at work in my life. I'm sorry I have gone astray and left you standing there on your path and made my own. I'm here, I'm back and I want to catch up. Teach me. Guide me. Let your Will be done, not mine. I know many days I think I have the best plan, but God.. yours always prevails and beats mine better a thousands times more. I love your creations. I thank you for bringing me this far in life, for providing me with what I need and not what I want, and thank you for showing me what the difference is. I thank you for the people who have crossed my path and have stayed or left. You put them there to make me who I am today. I can't say it enough, but Thank you. Lord give me the desire to fight the GOOD fight and not the evil one that is fought here on this earth. Lord please take my burdens and help face my trials and obstacles with me. Thank you, you are more than enough for me. In Your Gracious name I pray... Amen.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Friday, October 21, 2011
What would you do?
Last night I was at Wal-Mart with Kelsie, honestly I never want to be there for very long because I go in for 2.00 eggs and come out with eggs and 198$ of other stuff. I was getting only a few more things and Kelsie stopped me from going over my budget which was 50$. She so good at that! I was standing in the self-check out line, and a lady said "excuse me." I moved over thinking I was in her way, but that wasn't it. She came up to me and starting telling me this story. She had left her husband that beat her for years and had a 2 year old and 12 year old. The two-year old was in the cart and I noticed that all she had in the cart was clothes for the little one. The lady said she had left everything behind to escape from him. She asked me NOT to pay for everything, but to just help her out. I gave her 5 dollars cash. Two things, I know some of you are are like "WHY DID YOU DO THAT? IT'S A SCAM!" and the other thing is "If it wasn't a scam I bought that little girl a long sleeve shirt."
It makes me feel better knowing that IF that lady was not lying to me, I gave something. I didn't give all, but at least I didn't turn her away. I'm not going snootie. God gave me this money for a reason. I want to be helpful anyway I can, but not a complete push over. I know that this lady could have gotten in a lot of trouble if someone had called the cops on her, but I did give her 5 dollars, trust me for a while after I thought about all the "What if's." but it comes down to, did you do what was right in your eyes. At the moment, yes I did. And Thats all that matters. God didn't do detective work on everyone before he gave me my job to earn this money.
Overall why should we be skeptical of everyone's true motives. If she was scamming me, WAHOO she got 5 dollars. But didn't hurt me financially. I would have been scammed if i had paid for everything in the cart.
But as I checked out, she was in the next line, she took my 5 dollars and my 5 dollars only to pay for one item in the cart and gave the rest back to the cashier because she couldn't afford it.
Again I will pray for her and hope all the best that she keeps her head up in this time.
We must help everyone we can with our gifts. We are not put here on this earth to gather and save meaningless things and money.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
End of Times
I know this is long, but everyone that wants to go to heaven needs to read and listen to this. I'm not a bible thumper, but please take the time to read and listen to the sermon. Please. God Bless You!
Last week in church we discussed the end of times, How it will look like and what we should be doing and should continue doing until that time. Here is the message if you want to hear my pastor speak on it. "That's all folks"
About 13 minutes into the message he talks about how the world WILL NEVER end on a date set by man.
He moves into the book of 2 Peter. Verse 8 --8 But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. 9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.--
28 “Now learn a lesson from the fig tree. When its branches bud and its leaves begin to sprout, you know that summer is near. 29 In the same way, when you see all these things taking place, you can know that his return is very near, right at the door. 30 I tell you the truth, this generation[k] will not pass from the scene before all these things take place. 31Heaven and earth will disappear, but my words will never disappear.
32 “However, no one knows the day or hour when these things will happen, not even the angels in heaven or the Son himself. Only the Father knows. 33 And since you don’t know when that time will come, be on guard! Stay alert[l]!
34 “The coming of the Son of Man can be illustrated by the story of a man going on a long trip. When he left home, he gave each of his slaves instructions about the work they were to do, and he told the gatekeeper to watch for his return. 35 You, too, must keep watch! For you don’t know when the master of the household will return—in the evening, at midnight, before dawn, or at daybreak. 36 Don’t let him find you sleeping when he arrives without warning. 37 I say to you what I say to everyone: Watch for him!”
Every generation says they think that God is coming back when they are alive. A day is like a thousand of years. -- Jewish scholars have studied and said this is not an figure of speech. For instance this is a picture of God's timing.
From the beginning to the end is 7 days (7 days to create the world- 7 days to end the world) .. each day is representing a thousand years.
From Adam to Jesus it was: 4 generations = 4000 years
From Jesus to Now is 2000 years
4000+2000=6000 and so 1 day left.
Meaning-- We are closer than ever. The dawn of the "7th day" is approaching and at the dawn of the 7th day the reign will come.
This generation-- OUR GENERATION-- has the MOST influence of positive and gospel spreading capabilities. (Phones and Computers and all of technology)
2000 nations-- and USA is most capable!!
People will be doing their own thing - Times will be like back in Noah's Time---- Matthew 24:37-39, “When the Son of Man returns, it will be like it was in Noah’s day. In those days before the flood, the people were enjoying banquets and parties and weddings right up to the time Noah entered his boat. People didn’t realize what was going to happen until the flood came and swept them all away. That is the way it will be when the Son of Man comes.” (NLT)
LISTEN TO THIS SERMON AND Here is the Sheet from the service:
2 Peter 3:17...
17 Therefore, dear friends, since you have been forewarned, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of the lawless and fall from your secure position. 18 But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.
Last week in church we discussed the end of times, How it will look like and what we should be doing and should continue doing until that time. Here is the message if you want to hear my pastor speak on it. "That's all folks"
About 13 minutes into the message he talks about how the world WILL NEVER end on a date set by man.
He moves into the book of 2 Peter. Verse 8 --8 But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. 9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.--
28 “Now learn a lesson from the fig tree. When its branches bud and its leaves begin to sprout, you know that summer is near. 29 In the same way, when you see all these things taking place, you can know that his return is very near, right at the door. 30 I tell you the truth, this generation[k] will not pass from the scene before all these things take place. 31Heaven and earth will disappear, but my words will never disappear.
32 “However, no one knows the day or hour when these things will happen, not even the angels in heaven or the Son himself. Only the Father knows. 33 And since you don’t know when that time will come, be on guard! Stay alert[l]!
34 “The coming of the Son of Man can be illustrated by the story of a man going on a long trip. When he left home, he gave each of his slaves instructions about the work they were to do, and he told the gatekeeper to watch for his return. 35 You, too, must keep watch! For you don’t know when the master of the household will return—in the evening, at midnight, before dawn, or at daybreak. 36 Don’t let him find you sleeping when he arrives without warning. 37 I say to you what I say to everyone: Watch for him!”
Every generation says they think that God is coming back when they are alive. A day is like a thousand of years. -- Jewish scholars have studied and said this is not an figure of speech. For instance this is a picture of God's timing.
From the beginning to the end is 7 days (7 days to create the world- 7 days to end the world) .. each day is representing a thousand years.
From Adam to Jesus it was: 4 generations = 4000 years
From Jesus to Now is 2000 years
4000+2000=6000 and so 1 day left.
Meaning-- We are closer than ever. The dawn of the "7th day" is approaching and at the dawn of the 7th day the reign will come.
This generation-- OUR GENERATION-- has the MOST influence of positive and gospel spreading capabilities. (Phones and Computers and all of technology)
2000 nations-- and USA is most capable!!
People will be doing their own thing - Times will be like back in Noah's Time---- Matthew 24:37-39, “When the Son of Man returns, it will be like it was in Noah’s day. In those days before the flood, the people were enjoying banquets and parties and weddings right up to the time Noah entered his boat. People didn’t realize what was going to happen until the flood came and swept them all away. That is the way it will be when the Son of Man comes.” (NLT)
LISTEN TO THIS SERMON AND Here is the Sheet from the service:
October 15th/16th, 2011 Discussion Guide
What Time is IT?!?!
Matthew 24:3-14; 36 (NLT) II Peter 3:3-10 (NLT)
Message Recap
People will do their own thing.
Matthew 24:37-39, “When the Son of Man returns, it will be like it was in Noah’s day. In those days before the flood, the people were enjoying banquets and parties and weddings right up to the time Noah entered his boat. People didn’t realize what was going to happen until the flood came and swept them all away. That is the way it will be when the Son of Man comes.” (NLT)
Ask yourself, “how am I viewing...
• ... people” - Are you easily offended? Do you hold grudges or have anger/bitterness/strife?
• ... life” - Are you constantly the victim? Does it seem that everyone / everything is out to get you? Are you the center of your life?
• ... stuff” - Does the thought of a new home, new car, new clothes, big vacations consume your thoughts, your time, your resources?
People will forget God.
Matthew 24:12, “Sin will be rampant everywhere, and the love of many will grow cold.” (NLT)
People will not be ready.
Matthew 24:40-42, “Two men will be working together in the field; one will be taken, the other left. Two women will be grinding flour at the mill; one will be taken, the other left. So you too, must keep watch! For you don’t know what day your Lord is coming.” (NLT)
I Thessalonians 5:2, “For you know quite well that the day of the Lord’s return will come unexpectedly, like a thief in the night.” (NLT)
Discussion Questions:
Q. What if you knew Jesus was coming back this year? What are some of the things that you would do - or do differently?
Q. Pastor Patrick said that one of the signs of the times is that people will do their own thing; that instead of being heavenly minded, they will be earthly minded. Describe some ways that you have been earthly minded instead of heavenly minded. What can you do to flip that around?
Q. Read Matthew 24:12 - Give some examples of what may cause our love to grow cold. What are some “warning signs” in our own life that might indicate that our “love is growing cold”?
Q. The Bible says that in the end days, people will not be ready. This is something that cause concern for people, as they worry about whether they are ready for the return of Christ. If you have dealt with this concern in your life, share your experience.
Q. Paul uses the phrase “thief in the night” to describe the return of Christ. What does this terminology imply to you?
Q. Read Titus 2:13- What impact does knowing Christ is coming back make in your life? What does it look like to have hope?
If “The End” is near...
WHAT DO WE DO ABOUT IT!?!?
I Peter 4:7-10, “The end of the world is coming soon. Therefore, be earnest and disciplined in your prayers. Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins. Cheerfully share your home with those who need a meal or place to stay. God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Use them well to serve one another.” (NLT)
1 - Pray (vs. 7) – What are some things that you can change about your prayer life this week?
2 - Focus on Relationships (vs. 8-9) – Are their relationships in your life that needs mending? What can you do this week to begin the journey of reconciliation?
3 - Use your Gifts (vs. 10-11) – What are some of the gifting’s you believe God has put inside of you? What are some ways that you can begin to use them?
4 - Get your life right with God - II Peter 3:11-
Turn away from evil
2 Peter 3:17...
17 Therefore, dear friends, since you have been forewarned, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of the lawless and fall from your secure position. 18 But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Wisconsin
This is where I'll be in a week.
This is my grandparents house. I love it there. It holds so many memories. So much love. So much safety.
I spent many summers with them here, fishing, working, cooking, washing dishes, watching the weather.
The memories of this house and my grandparents I will never forget.
Though there won't be any snow when I get there. I plan on enjoying every moment there.
Its been two years since I've seen my papa.
4 years since my grandmother passed.
Her love is still in this house. Her love was so strong and honest. It was actual love that was warming when you were just near her.
I forgot to post this one a while back..
Myspace Style:
Title: My Week
Current Mood: Calm
Music: "Say it Ain't So": Weezer-- "Kings of Leon- Pandora Station"
I woke up this morning, decided to get up, go get a extra hot caramel macchiato. Since I have no internet or cable in the house, I tend to go to Starbucks to read the news, drink coffee and pretty much relax before work and not spend money. Things always seem to go good until you happen to spill coffee on yourself. Now I have coffee stains on my jeans. :/
But anyways, that is not the point of my post. Through the week I will be thinking about something and think "I could write about that in my blog" and when it comes down to writing my blog, I forget everything I thought about writing.
Well maybe I will just start talking about my week...
I have work a total of 103.75 hours in the last two weeks. I was getting up at 5 every other morning and taking deliveries, doing truck orders and then going home taking 30 minute nap and go back to work from 2pm- 11pm. I love weeks like that though. I stay busy. I feel like I have a purpose. I don't spend money. I'm helping for the good of the company.
I encountered a few customers this week. These customers were the "silent" bad ones. No, I'm not talking about anything smelling, I talking about the ones that like to rack up on all the free condiments and napkins they can stuff in their bags. I know the economy is bad. But if you think about what these customers are doing, they are creating a chain reaction. They are making our prices go up in food so we can afford the proper condiments. So while you are "saving money" on condiments at home.. In a few months, you will be paying for it when you eat at restaurants (Not just mine). Before you rack up on the "free stuff". Just remember you're not helping the economy any. God tells us not to hoard anything of this world, including food. So why? Why do it?
I could write a book on the adventures of fast food. And for once, it wouldn't be about the "secret food" that goes undiscussed, because there isn't any in my restaurant. It would literally be about the customers and employees. It would be full of laughs and "seriously??'s" If you have every worked in fast food, you may feel my joy and pain in this. But I'm sure someone would sue me for some stupid reason, so why take the time to write it? If you want stories just ask me.
I was rather frustrated through the week. It feels somedays I go the second mile for people at work or even in public, and it's goes a long time until I even someone acknowledge it or go the second mile for me. And it gets discouraging, and makes me think why do I continue do this?? My old operator Robb always told his leadership, "No matter what, do whats right." It was an open-ended statement, but still you continue to do the good work for the unknown rewards that only God knows and holds.
On a funny note, a few nights ago, a new girl said "How many nuggets do I get with my 8 nugget employee meal?"---- I stood there for a second and probably thought about what she said about 10 times before saying.."Repeat what you just said to me...and listen to yourself." Lets just say there are just some kids I worry about. She wanted to be a teacher she told me in her interview. (hopefully not a math one).
Anyways.. til next time..
Myspace Style:
Title: My Week
Current Mood: Calm
Music: "Say it Ain't So": Weezer-- "Kings of Leon- Pandora Station"
I woke up this morning, decided to get up, go get a extra hot caramel macchiato. Since I have no internet or cable in the house, I tend to go to Starbucks to read the news, drink coffee and pretty much relax before work and not spend money. Things always seem to go good until you happen to spill coffee on yourself. Now I have coffee stains on my jeans. :/
But anyways, that is not the point of my post. Through the week I will be thinking about something and think "I could write about that in my blog" and when it comes down to writing my blog, I forget everything I thought about writing.
Well maybe I will just start talking about my week...
I have work a total of 103.75 hours in the last two weeks. I was getting up at 5 every other morning and taking deliveries, doing truck orders and then going home taking 30 minute nap and go back to work from 2pm- 11pm. I love weeks like that though. I stay busy. I feel like I have a purpose. I don't spend money. I'm helping for the good of the company.
I encountered a few customers this week. These customers were the "silent" bad ones. No, I'm not talking about anything smelling, I talking about the ones that like to rack up on all the free condiments and napkins they can stuff in their bags. I know the economy is bad. But if you think about what these customers are doing, they are creating a chain reaction. They are making our prices go up in food so we can afford the proper condiments. So while you are "saving money" on condiments at home.. In a few months, you will be paying for it when you eat at restaurants (Not just mine). Before you rack up on the "free stuff". Just remember you're not helping the economy any. God tells us not to hoard anything of this world, including food. So why? Why do it?
I could write a book on the adventures of fast food. And for once, it wouldn't be about the "secret food" that goes undiscussed, because there isn't any in my restaurant. It would literally be about the customers and employees. It would be full of laughs and "seriously??'s" If you have every worked in fast food, you may feel my joy and pain in this. But I'm sure someone would sue me for some stupid reason, so why take the time to write it? If you want stories just ask me.
I was rather frustrated through the week. It feels somedays I go the second mile for people at work or even in public, and it's goes a long time until I even someone acknowledge it or go the second mile for me. And it gets discouraging, and makes me think why do I continue do this?? My old operator Robb always told his leadership, "No matter what, do whats right." It was an open-ended statement, but still you continue to do the good work for the unknown rewards that only God knows and holds.
On a funny note, a few nights ago, a new girl said "How many nuggets do I get with my 8 nugget employee meal?"---- I stood there for a second and probably thought about what she said about 10 times before saying.."Repeat what you just said to me...and listen to yourself." Lets just say there are just some kids I worry about. She wanted to be a teacher she told me in her interview. (hopefully not a math one).
Anyways.. til next time..
Saturday, September 3, 2011
I love...
People tend to ask me what I love.
I love the fact that I am in love with the most amazing and creative artist and musician in everything, God.
I love the creator of the things I love...make sense?
If you stop and take in what God has and IS creating around you. What you are stressed with is man made or self made. Not God made...
I love the fact that I am in love with the most amazing and creative artist and musician in everything, God.
I love the creator of the things I love...make sense?
"I love fall"
I love the design of even the smallest things, because he took time to make them unique
I love the surprises you wake up to..
I saw this bumper sticker in Nashville and loved it..
It says "He Came".."He Died".."He Arose".."He Ascended".. and "He's COMING BACK!"
Awesome!
I think everyone, including me, forgets that he is coming back. We focus on how far away he is and how lost we are. If we all focus on him, he's right next to you.
These are just a few photos from my phone. More will be coming.
Thanks for reading.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Unexpected..
Life is...
Miscommunicated. Unfortunate. Crazy. Confusing. Undecided. Unexpected.
When we wake up, all we know is we are alive and we have somewhat of a plan, but the details are truly unknown. We could have woken up late due to us completely relying on technology, but it fails us. We could have woke up and during getting ready you stub your toe, your hair is not cooperating what so ever and dryer stopped working and your clothes are damp still. Not only are you limping when you get to work, you look like crap. WHAT A WAY TO START YOUR DAY!
What if you woke up and everything was fine. Everything was working as it should. You get to your car, and it is broken into?
What if everything was fine until your lunch hour and you find out at a cooperate lunch, your identity has been stolen and all your card bounce. Not only are you embarrassed, you are sent into a whirl wind of getting your identity back.
Life is full of unexpected turns and twists.
This past week has been a tornado for me. The work week is starting great. I made a step into my life that will make me a true independent individual on Monday morning. Monday went okay overall. Then came Tuesday. I opened the store up and everything was going good. I even got a "John Wayne" from Starbucks before my shift, that drink contains 5 shot of expresso. So if you can imagine, I was literally bouncing off the walls. Lets say the customer service and attentive scores went up that day! But at 10:30, I happened to answer the phone and hear "Yes, may I speak with Tia Freoidngdfdn" (Of course they pronounce my name wrong). I confirm its me but a few security questions. Soon I find out I'm talking with Visa. They said that large purchases were made late last night on my account and said that they wanted to confirm that I did or did not make these purchases. My emotions were boiling at this moment. I was shaking. WHY ME? How?? My card is always with me. I got online and checked my account and sure enough two transactions were made on my account. One for 120$ to a fruit company in Oregon. The second was 720$ to an american express gift card.
My heart fell to the floor. My Gen. Manager came in and said what was going on. Told her (well screamed really). I was so caught up in the moment. I apologized later, don't worry. I went to the bank and clock out of work (making me miss about 4 hours of work). The lady said it was good that i caught it before it went through into my account. Visa caught them while they were still pending.
I had applied for a card on the 5th of August and I was denied due to "too many applications containing my ssn." The next day I got LifeLock. I'll pay 15$ a month to make sure that my identity isn't stolen anymore.
Overall this whole week has been STRESSFUL.
But then Friday came with not the best news. My Best Friends grandmother had past away after battling some health problems. The woman as I knew named "Magu" was a very sweet grandmother, spoke her mind and also welcomed me into her house on Thanksgiving having never met me before that. Apparently it was rare for her to leave her chair, but when I walked in she got up and hugged me. She was good company watching us play Wii and also loved her grandchildren with everything she had and was.
Though my week was horrible. Death of a special person like that brings everyone back to the basics of what is REALLY important. It brought back memories of my grandmothers life and passing and how fast it all went. She was at my sisters wedding at the end of July, but she passed away in September the same year. A check-up went wrong. Thanks to the doctors and nurses mistake they took her faster than she really should have gone. I'm not bitter. She is better off up there watching me live life and she still lives on in my blood and in my heart forever. She will always be a part of me. My mom says I have her serving heart.
The fact that I will see these loved ones once again bring me hope and joy.
God is good, even if we don't understand anything he is doing. Thats why life is confusing. Thats why life is so not what WE planned. God knows when the people has lived their purpose. God knows when they are ready for picking. God knows the right season. God knows when your life is not going the way you want. God probably laughs at our plans. All we see is the small picture in Olive Branch, MS. Not the Universe.
Life is not what we think it is. It is not what we planned. Life is God's property. He is a jealous God. He will always prevail through everything. He is Sovereign. He is Everything this that is Good. Give thanks for the Ups and Downs of life.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. (James 1:2-4)
I do not want to lack anything. I want to have perseverance through everything, but I can't have true perseverance without God. Without God, I am selfish in my ways and gaining everything for all the wrong reasons.
Miscommunicated. Unfortunate. Crazy. Confusing. Undecided. Unexpected.
When we wake up, all we know is we are alive and we have somewhat of a plan, but the details are truly unknown. We could have woken up late due to us completely relying on technology, but it fails us. We could have woke up and during getting ready you stub your toe, your hair is not cooperating what so ever and dryer stopped working and your clothes are damp still. Not only are you limping when you get to work, you look like crap. WHAT A WAY TO START YOUR DAY!
What if you woke up and everything was fine. Everything was working as it should. You get to your car, and it is broken into?
What if everything was fine until your lunch hour and you find out at a cooperate lunch, your identity has been stolen and all your card bounce. Not only are you embarrassed, you are sent into a whirl wind of getting your identity back.
Life is full of unexpected turns and twists.
This past week has been a tornado for me. The work week is starting great. I made a step into my life that will make me a true independent individual on Monday morning. Monday went okay overall. Then came Tuesday. I opened the store up and everything was going good. I even got a "John Wayne" from Starbucks before my shift, that drink contains 5 shot of expresso. So if you can imagine, I was literally bouncing off the walls. Lets say the customer service and attentive scores went up that day! But at 10:30, I happened to answer the phone and hear "Yes, may I speak with Tia Freoidngdfdn" (Of course they pronounce my name wrong). I confirm its me but a few security questions. Soon I find out I'm talking with Visa. They said that large purchases were made late last night on my account and said that they wanted to confirm that I did or did not make these purchases. My emotions were boiling at this moment. I was shaking. WHY ME? How?? My card is always with me. I got online and checked my account and sure enough two transactions were made on my account. One for 120$ to a fruit company in Oregon. The second was 720$ to an american express gift card.
My heart fell to the floor. My Gen. Manager came in and said what was going on. Told her (well screamed really). I was so caught up in the moment. I apologized later, don't worry. I went to the bank and clock out of work (making me miss about 4 hours of work). The lady said it was good that i caught it before it went through into my account. Visa caught them while they were still pending.
I had applied for a card on the 5th of August and I was denied due to "too many applications containing my ssn." The next day I got LifeLock. I'll pay 15$ a month to make sure that my identity isn't stolen anymore.
Overall this whole week has been STRESSFUL.
But then Friday came with not the best news. My Best Friends grandmother had past away after battling some health problems. The woman as I knew named "Magu" was a very sweet grandmother, spoke her mind and also welcomed me into her house on Thanksgiving having never met me before that. Apparently it was rare for her to leave her chair, but when I walked in she got up and hugged me. She was good company watching us play Wii and also loved her grandchildren with everything she had and was.
Though my week was horrible. Death of a special person like that brings everyone back to the basics of what is REALLY important. It brought back memories of my grandmothers life and passing and how fast it all went. She was at my sisters wedding at the end of July, but she passed away in September the same year. A check-up went wrong. Thanks to the doctors and nurses mistake they took her faster than she really should have gone. I'm not bitter. She is better off up there watching me live life and she still lives on in my blood and in my heart forever. She will always be a part of me. My mom says I have her serving heart.
The fact that I will see these loved ones once again bring me hope and joy.
God is good, even if we don't understand anything he is doing. Thats why life is confusing. Thats why life is so not what WE planned. God knows when the people has lived their purpose. God knows when they are ready for picking. God knows the right season. God knows when your life is not going the way you want. God probably laughs at our plans. All we see is the small picture in Olive Branch, MS. Not the Universe.
Life is not what we think it is. It is not what we planned. Life is God's property. He is a jealous God. He will always prevail through everything. He is Sovereign. He is Everything this that is Good. Give thanks for the Ups and Downs of life.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. (James 1:2-4)
I do not want to lack anything. I want to have perseverance through everything, but I can't have true perseverance without God. Without God, I am selfish in my ways and gaining everything for all the wrong reasons.
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