So I know it has been a while since I have last blogged, and I sure you scan through the last few ones because they were quite long. But here is another blog about Tia's Life.
Why is it when I am driving home from work around11:30 every night and I think of all the things I need to do, or want to do. Two nights ago I thought I would get up and run and eat a good breakfast have time with God and start doing a better routine. Well, my alarm didn't go off for my 8 o'clock wake up run and I slept until 10 and then I was suppose to be at the store for payroll at 10:30. So my point is.. why is it when you are sure you can pull off a GOOD routine, it is destroyed by something so simple like sleep or an alarm clock. Some may say "it was Satan causing it not to happen" and some will say "Oh I guess it was just not meant to happen." Either way, I felt like I had failed at something so simple.
The next day I did get up at 8:30 and with the encouragement of my best friend, went running at the park for 30 minutes. I had time with God and went to work energized. So much better than the day before.
I came upon this verse in Proverbs 4. God has called us to take his words (the Bible), pay attention and understand so they we may live a better life IN Him. I know some days we skim the verses, take the icing off the cake and spit out quick prayer for forgiveness and protection. Maybe you haven't tasted the the whole cake, or ate enough to get to the full filling of God's love and wisdom. But it's time. You want to know why you are stressed? You want to know why you feel overwhelmed by life? Because you have not taken the time to LISTEN to God's teachings. We wonder where did God go??? I've been there, many times. I wonder why is God not showing himself here? Why do I feel this weight, I thought God was suppose to take my burdens? But in all reality, I was the one who moved so far away, I was the one that swerved off the path, I stepped into the quicksand of the world or money, gossip, and disappointment. It wasn't God. But I do know that God was there waiting every second for me to just turn to him, call to him, ask him, and seek him fully. Not ride the fence of living life the way I wanted to, but to hop off into His Love, Grace and Forgiveness.
Proverbs 4:1-9: (image God comes to you as a child and tells you this)
1 My children,[a] listen when your father corrects you.
Pay attention and learn good judgment,
2 for I am giving you good guidance.
Don’t turn away from my instructions.
3 For I, too, was once my father’s son,
tenderly loved as my mother’s only child.
4 My father taught me,
“Take my words to heart.
Follow my commands, and you will live.
5 Get wisdom; develop good judgment.
Don’t forget my words or turn away from them.
6 Don’t turn your back on wisdom, for she will protect you.
Love her, and she will guard you.
7 Getting wisdom is the wisest thing you can do!
And whatever else you do, develop good judgment.
8 If you prize wisdom, she will make you great.
Embrace her, and she will honor you.
9 She will place a lovely wreath on your head;
she will present you with a beautiful crown.”
God tells us to take full acknowledgment of what He teaches. Wisdom is referred to "She/Her". Wisdom will make you great, Embrace the Wisdom that I have spoken, and Wisdom will prevail! If you use this Wisdom, you will be given a beautiful crown.
Ever since I can remember my father, was always on me to make sure I was not just thinking about what I was doing at the moment, but also what the consequences were going to be afterwards. When we moved heavy furniture he didn't want me to just focus on the weight or the furniture itself, but he told me to watch the walls and door frames, to watch where I stepped and where I was headed. Silly I know to think that something so small and almost a every weekend conversation, and I DID get sick of him saying "watch the wall, watch where you are going, watch where your hands are, DON'T TAKE ALL THE WEIGHT". My Dad may not have known this, but as I sit here, he was preparing me for life.
Watch the walls: Watch your boundaries...
Watch where you're going: Keep you focus forward...
Watch were your hands are: Are your hands where they need to be? Serving or being selfish...?
Don't take all the weight: Don't try and handle it all by yourself...
Read the verse until Verse 20....
20 My child, pay attention to what I say.
Listen carefully to my words.
21 Don’t lose sight of them.
Let them penetrate deep into your heart,
22 for they bring life to those who find them,
and healing to their whole body.
23 Guard your heart above all else,
for it determines the course of your life.
24 Avoid all perverse talk;
stay away from corrupt speech.
25 Look straight ahead,
and fix your eyes on what lies before you.
26 Mark out a straight path for your feet;
stay on the safe and firm path.
27 Don’t get sidetracked;
keep your feet from following evil.
I am not perfect, I lose sight a lot, I don't guard my heart as much as I should, and I am a sight seeker, I like to look left and right. But I want to change this. I want to be focused upon the one who WILL NOT let me fall and will guide me down the right path.
I'm praying for you. I'm praying God will meet you where you are and comfort you. He is there for you. Just call to Him. Tell Him about your day. Tell him what your heart feels.
Dear Heavenly Father, I know I have been silent for too long. I'm sorry for cluttering my ears and head of earthly problems and not focusing on You. I'm sorry for not living the life you have called me to. I'm sorry I get distracted so much by everyday life and don't notice you when you are at work in my life. I'm sorry I have gone astray and left you standing there on your path and made my own. I'm here, I'm back and I want to catch up. Teach me. Guide me. Let your Will be done, not mine. I know many days I think I have the best plan, but God.. yours always prevails and beats mine better a thousands times more. I love your creations. I thank you for bringing me this far in life, for providing me with what I need and not what I want, and thank you for showing me what the difference is. I thank you for the people who have crossed my path and have stayed or left. You put them there to make me who I am today. I can't say it enough, but Thank you. Lord give me the desire to fight the GOOD fight and not the evil one that is fought here on this earth. Lord please take my burdens and help face my trials and obstacles with me. Thank you, you are more than enough for me. In Your Gracious name I pray... Amen.
